Some of yall might have noticed a difference lately in my temperment. Im less tolerant of Lawlessness and traditions and have been disrespectful to people.
Let me first tell you about my little brother. His father, my step father before he abbandened us and died, was a herion junkie. At 13 I was the one trying to teach my 3 year old brother how to be a man. At 16, I remember being jealous of his relationship with Yeshua, this is when I started rebelling against everything. I remember thinking I knew exactly what Cain must of felt seeing God a prove of Able. I took off. I sent money home to my mom but I wasn't around. By time he was 18 he was a meth addict. That continued on until 3 years ago when he went to prison. He got clean and we stated speaking regularly about God. Several months ago he started pointing out how Christians had no set standard of what to beleive in regards to sin. That the law in the eyes of christians was gone. So Christians were hypocrites to tell people to what is moral and not. He started point out the tradtions that Christians and Jews followed instead of the laws of God. I noticed in a few of the letters to my kids odd sayings. I knew they were from the Quran. I questioned him about it and the letters stopped. Today I got a letter telling me he has finally given himself over to the one true god, Allah. He has renounced Yeshua.
He has tasted of the Holy Spirit and turned away. He cannot be grafted back in.
I felt this was coming and my heart has been breaking. So I lashed out at everyone who promoted what I saw as lawlessness and tradition. I've had the chance to talk about what was going on with a few guys from the forum during our phone calls but chose to keep it in. To rely on myself instead of asking for help. Now all I can do is think, what if I had asked for advice. I prayed an prayed and I know the Father heard my prays its just my brothers heart was stone. I just need some peace.
Let me first tell you about my little brother. His father, my step father before he abbandened us and died, was a herion junkie. At 13 I was the one trying to teach my 3 year old brother how to be a man. At 16, I remember being jealous of his relationship with Yeshua, this is when I started rebelling against everything. I remember thinking I knew exactly what Cain must of felt seeing God a prove of Able. I took off. I sent money home to my mom but I wasn't around. By time he was 18 he was a meth addict. That continued on until 3 years ago when he went to prison. He got clean and we stated speaking regularly about God. Several months ago he started pointing out how Christians had no set standard of what to beleive in regards to sin. That the law in the eyes of christians was gone. So Christians were hypocrites to tell people to what is moral and not. He started point out the tradtions that Christians and Jews followed instead of the laws of God. I noticed in a few of the letters to my kids odd sayings. I knew they were from the Quran. I questioned him about it and the letters stopped. Today I got a letter telling me he has finally given himself over to the one true god, Allah. He has renounced Yeshua.
He has tasted of the Holy Spirit and turned away. He cannot be grafted back in.
I felt this was coming and my heart has been breaking. So I lashed out at everyone who promoted what I saw as lawlessness and tradition. I've had the chance to talk about what was going on with a few guys from the forum during our phone calls but chose to keep it in. To rely on myself instead of asking for help. Now all I can do is think, what if I had asked for advice. I prayed an prayed and I know the Father heard my prays its just my brothers heart was stone. I just need some peace.
