I would like prayer for my wife, Brenda. I just have this groaning in my soul that she is heardening her heart against me, from rejection of the things I have tried to teach her. I have actualy recently & for quite some time been keeping to myslef & praying, but when we do discuss the word & what we are learning, its only natural that I am discussing family order & marriage. I try to keep it in a real neutral way, as in not emphesizing mono or plural. Mostly Im just praying though, other than this we are getting along fine.
So yesterday, at 1045 am, I was delivered from ciggerettes. Yea, i know they are bad, I was kinda wondering when the Lord would "convict" me of them, I was a heavy smoker. Im heading to a job, having a smoke, & I hear that quite small voice telling me to enjoy it, cause it was over, but no real conviction. I also heard why it was over, to show Brenda the power of God was on me, & to accept this as God's work & not mine, & to not let her heart harden like the pharoh. I did tell her about this, lovingly & slowly, trusting the Holy Spirit. She took it well, but I just got this nagging all day of why she would need to see this kind of power.
As far as the smokes, no problems, no urges. I did pray for God's forgiveness (took this to the cross) for what I have done to my body, & prayed for restoration if there is any damage, was led to 2 chronicles 7:14 to meditate on
I also took my "desires" to the mountain & left them with the Lord, as far as wanting a ciggerette, just to keep my "man" out of the deal, if that makes sence.
Praise Jesus, He is Faithful
John
So yesterday, at 1045 am, I was delivered from ciggerettes. Yea, i know they are bad, I was kinda wondering when the Lord would "convict" me of them, I was a heavy smoker. Im heading to a job, having a smoke, & I hear that quite small voice telling me to enjoy it, cause it was over, but no real conviction. I also heard why it was over, to show Brenda the power of God was on me, & to accept this as God's work & not mine, & to not let her heart harden like the pharoh. I did tell her about this, lovingly & slowly, trusting the Holy Spirit. She took it well, but I just got this nagging all day of why she would need to see this kind of power.
As far as the smokes, no problems, no urges. I did pray for God's forgiveness (took this to the cross) for what I have done to my body, & prayed for restoration if there is any damage, was led to 2 chronicles 7:14 to meditate on
I also took my "desires" to the mountain & left them with the Lord, as far as wanting a ciggerette, just to keep my "man" out of the deal, if that makes sence.
Praise Jesus, He is Faithful
John